A sufficient of love dissolve it all.

2012-01-23T20:01:00.000-08:00

Going bai nian with family yeah!!

My Sister and I <3

Happy CNY to everyone ! :)

2012-01-19T20:22:00.000-08:00

陆勇升，我爱你。我叫林芷如！我其实一直都很深爱着你，从来都不放弃。很想你，真的。好心苦都无可奈合。我从来都没有着样爱过别人，只有你。

只要你想做，没有事情是办不到的。告诉自己，痛苦只是短暂的，多大的伤害，始终都会好的。。我要放棄了。。我真的累了。。没人了解也没人懂。只好一个人默默地收藏。伪装的勇敢不轻易让你看穿我以为可以很坦然面对分开时不觉得伤感然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊。在转身之后我闭上眼哭了仅存的一点点骄傲华丽的外表终于丢掉很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或悲惨一个人该怎么办。我会好好过。凡事要看开一点，日子也会过得好一点。我不想再期待走下去，我不了解你怎能心安，也抓不住你的倔强。错是错在我，爱了你太多。不喜欢怀疑什麽，并不表示我没有感受。我不是生气，只是心痛。但越解释越觉得难过。

2012-01-19T20:06:00.001-08:00

Happy 8 Months anniversary Baby ! counting on still. I will always be here for you, you know that! MUACKS! ;)

My bf and hubby to be! :)

You'll be my last, baby!

Finally get to meet bb! we went out to Northpoint to sing karoke! damn HAPPY! <3 I love him so dearly! With his baby child. He's gonna be my last love. Having him is more den enough for me, i'm contented :)

2010-10-20T18:27:00.001-07:00

2010-10-19T16:48:00.000-07:00

*New Chapter : of me!

Love is a game. Easy to start. Hard to finish.

Ladies.. Never put everything into one person, because when they leave, then you have nothing.

Reeie <3>

Love me without restriction. Our best equipment is HEART, our best WEAPON is tongue. Don't use it to hurt people! Use it wisely!

Every girl has that guy she always knows she can turn to and who will be there for her.

Darrel & me!

Jy & me . <3>

Fading, take my breathe away please.

you make my life direction, you make everything so clear. because of you, half the time i don't even know, i'm smiling. i'm so pathetic. sad. whatever is that called. it's true, that's so much better to pretend like you're okay rather than being asked why you're not okay. there're some tears behind "i'm okay". the best feeling are those that have no words to describe them. there is a "lie" in believe, "over" in lover, "end" in friend, "us" in trust, and "if" in life. i miss you, and it's killing me a little bit too much. yes, i lost you. no one understands. where's the good in goodbye? i just don't see it. a man never knows how to say goodbye, a woman never knows when to say it. EYES express the real feeling better than words. everyone deserves a second change, not a third. you can only fully understand what you've done to others when someone do the same to you. i'd give everything just to be your anything. you know you're in love when the hardest thing to say is goodbye. if the relationship doesn't make you a better person, then you're with the wrong one. i don't love you. and i actually lie. i can't accept that it's over. you have no idea how you could be so important to me. i love you a little bit more each day. you're everything i need, everything i didn't ask to, but you're here. i love you, and that's why i care too much. "when i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change. 'cause you're amazing, just the way you are.." sometimes your mind doesn't want you to be in love, but deep down, you know you are. and it cut me like a knife, when you walk out of my life. You just don't know what its like. i don't know why i'm still waiting. i want to be the first one to make your smile when you wake up.

2010-10-09T00:17:00.001-07:00

I hate how when someone a part of your dail;y routine, it's so hard to adjust once you stop talking. They end up being all you think about.

Sometimes when i say " i'm okay " , i want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say, " I know you're not. "

Never regret something that once made u smile. If it comes back to you, then it's yours forever. If it doesn't then it was never yours to begin with. It's hurt when you get a fake smile from someone you love. The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to.

2010-10-08T22:32:00.000-07:00

I never told you.

I love the way you lie.

Believe your eyes, not your ears.

I know what's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. This is a sick fcuking world... we live in... If they don't chase you when you walk away... keep walking! I just don't want us to fall apart! :X You know why i still try... when you act like you don't care? Because i love you, that's why. :( Take all the feelings you have right now... take them, and roll them up. And shove'em, up your ass! :)

No Regrets, Just Love !

I always have this fear that one day you are going to discover that i'm not as great as you once thought i was.

2010-10-08T21:03:00.000-07:00

Missing someone hurts, but knowing that someone doesn't miss you, hurts even more. When it feel like living's harder den dying, ' giving up's way harder den trying.

2010-10-05T05:23:00.000-07:00

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in. And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you.

Just gonna stand there And hear me cry But that's alright Because I loveThe way you lie.

you are more important den u realise.

2010-10-03T06:35:00.000-07:00

Love is like a Drug, When you haven't tasted it you say you don't need it But if you already did. You can't stay one minute without it. It's not what you look like, But who you are and what you do that makes you seem beautiful in another person's eyes. Never judge someone’s character. You never know what kind of experience they went through to make them that way. I’ve never felt like this before, I’m happy. You make me happy, I haven’t felt this happy in a long time and the thought of losing you makes my stomach turn. Please don’t leave me. True tears don't fall from your eyes, they fall from your heart. Just because we don't say certain things, doesn't mean we don't feel them.

2010-10-02T21:03:00.000-07:00

MY HEAD KEEPS SAYING WHO CARES, MY HEART WHISPERS YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE WHEN YOU CAN'T HATE THEM FOR BREAKING YOUR HEART. SMILING HAS ALWAYS BEEN EASIER THAN EXPLAINING WHY YOU'RE SAD. .:( I SMILE AND ACT LIKE NOTHING'S WRONG. IT'S CALLED PUTTING S**T ASIDE AND ACTING STRONG. SOMETIMES, CUPID FALL TO HIT THAT DARN LOVE SHOT.

2010-10-02T19:30:00.001-07:00

MY HEART SANK AND I DIDN'T EXPECT TO SEE YOU. I COULDN'T BRING MYSELF TO HATE U AT ALL, CAUSE YOU'LL ALWAYS BE E ONE, I COULDN'T BEAR TO FORGET U AND EVERY PIECES OF IT. U ARE E ONE 'LL LOVE FOREVER. .:(

2010-09-04T23:20:00.001-07:00

Confided in me was your heart, I know it's hurting you but it's killing me. I took their smiles and I made them mine, I sold my soul just to hide the light. I've seen the best and worst of you. tho...

There are times, you're so impossible, that I should sign a waiver.

Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears, I'm not feeling this situation.

2010-09-04T19:45:00.000-07:00

You don't see me at all.

Note to self I miss you terribly, this is what we call a tragedy, come back to me. Confided in me was your heart, I know it's hurting you but it's killing me. Play your games and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit. I stand before a road that will lead into the unknown, at least unknown to me. Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears, I'm not feeling this situation. Broken by words left unspoken. ‘Do this for me’, ‘no’, ‘if you love me you will’, ‘Fine!!’ I am what I am, your opinion is neither desired nor required.

I've,

Ndy, my buddy! he just live next to me! chilled with him and his friend around my area. i'm not in a good mood, super damn moodless actually... i don't feel right at all, without your text and everything. don't ask me why cause it's just kind of mixed feelings i supposed!

2010-09-03T04:59:00.001-07:00

Today is friday, and i'm staying home tonight! :D will head out tomorrow instead ya! :) I miss ... :)

Movie, finally! :)

Been having lots of thoughts lately... end of the day, it's you who treat me the best ! :( sighhsss. i miss you ! so damn much!!! :'((

You are UNIQUE, not DIFFERENT.

Never regret to the times when you cry. It may not bring back what happened, But atleast you eliminate 'TOXINS' in your body! :) Happiness is come from the heart. No need to say, just feel it. Love is the seventh sense, which destroys all the other six senses. Love Is Almost Like Suicide.You Give So Much ToThat Special Someone,You End Up Killing Yourself Inside ♥♥ Love the ones who does care for your love, not the ones who just know you love them.

2010-08-31T02:36:00.000-07:00

No matter what u do, no matter how stupid, dumb or damaging u judge it to be, there's a lesson to be learned from it.

Its not what they do in life but what they did before dying that proves their worth.

Pearl <3>

Love yourself no matter who you're. So you won't have to live in regret & disappointment.

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

2010-08-31T00:38:00.000-07:00

No matter what u do, no matter how stupid, dumb or damaging u judge it to be, there's a lesson to be learned from it. Beauty gets attention, personality gets the heart. Its not what they do in life but what they did before dying that proves their worth. TO BE in the dilemma of life when it stands in front of death’s eternity. If you follow others you are blind, but if everyone followed you then you would be corrupt. To know that you do not know is the best; to pretend to know when you do not know is disease. Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely. Love yourself no matter who you're. So you won't have to live in regret & disappointment. A heartbreak is a heartbreak, not a heart loss, you will be able to love again. Sometimes Disaster, Trouble, and Problem is good to show you which one is your real friend. Emotions are mistaken judgements about external states of affairs. Obsession; it's either motivates you or destroys you. Life doesn't have to be perfect. It just has to be lived.

2010-08-30T02:34:00.000-07:00

You're gonna be my beautiful dreams, don't wake me up please! thank you!

Sometimes I say things that don't really make sense to me either.

To the world you may be but one, but to one you might be the world.

I'm gonna live this day like there's no tomorrow! Each of us is in truth an unlimited idea of freedom. Everything that limits us we have to put aside. A pint of example is worth a gallon of advice. Self-trust is the first secret of success. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Thought is the seed of action. Happiness does not depend on outward things, but on the way we see them. Insist on yourself. Never imitate. Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.

2010-08-24T07:17:00.000-07:00

Fake smiles are worse than fake orgasms. Words can hurt one's feeling. But silence, it can damage a person. Silence speaks louder than you'll ever know. There's nothing worse than meaning nothing to the person who means everything to you. Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it. Only he who desires nothing is a truly contented man. When we first met, i had no idea that you would be so important to me! Sometimes i wish life had subtitles. Words are the voices me the heart. Confucius. :(

2010-08-12T16:55:00.000-07:00

"I'm not perfect but if I were, trust me you'd get bored. So #love me for who I am." ~ Unknown :))) Some people build walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down. Today was the first day of the rest of my life.‎"Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure." "If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." ‎"I am not a has-been. I am a will be." Don't think you're IMPOSSIBLE,change your paradigm into I'M POSSIBLE! One of the hardest things in life is having "I Love You" in your heart that you can't utter. Sometimes I wish I could just fast-forward through time, just to see if it's all worth it in the end. Learn what to say at the right time. 'Cause one word can flip the mood instantly. I never thought things will turn out this way. Good things come not to those who wait, but to those who seize their opportunities. I will always love you, cause i've never ever bear to give you up. No matter rains or shines, I will always love you. You know I will never give you up.

2010-08-06T19:01:00.000-07:00

I couldn't believed you actually did that. Do u know how much it hurts to see ...

WHY ???!!! is it you???!!!

Better a has-been than a never-was... But better a never-was than a never-tried-to-be :) You're supposed to cry over cuts and stitches, not sluts and bitches. When someone is telling you that you can't do something, don't quit, just smile and say "I'll show you" :))) Before you judge someone, imagine what the world looks like through their eyes. It is an undoubted truth, that the less one has to do, the less time one finds to do it in. I need patience, and I need it now. Dammit I’m mad” is the same spelt backwards! Do not argue with an idiot. He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience. Lifes like a mirror! Just because you break or ignore the mirror, doesn't mean your reflection will change. Letting go seems so terifying. Cause you never know if you'll get out Stronger or . . Weaker . Never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience. Smile! Every drop of tear tells just how much you've learned, and every scar you got tells just how strong you are. Gossip is for the weak. Remember: "If you don't see it with your eyes, it shouldn't be coming out from your mouth. You know someone means a lot to you when they're mood can easily affect yours. Don't waste your time on someone, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. Love is like Inception, you think you understand what just happened with your feelings but you are never sure. Tears are words that need to be written. Lose your pride, lose your patience, lose your mind. But whatever you do, don't lose hope. It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything. Life isn't perfect, but it does have perfect moments.The best argument in the world is.. "Who loves who more." Pain warns you something's wrong. Without it, you'd ignore what needs to be fixed in your life.

2010-07-29T17:18:00.000-07:00

It's been a week ever since i'm with him. To be truthful, i'm feeling so awkward and uneasy all over and each and everytime i have to be pretend to be strong and happy so that we wouldn't have any conflicts between us. As i wouldn't want us to be unhappy or feel the heartache. Frankly, i'm kinda surprised that such a short period tho it's only a week so far, but we meet everyday without fail. The feeling is so strong, sometimes the words or actions that u purposely sound out to make me jealous, i can say it's a good start that i feel this way cause that proven i really love you. Gosh, it's been so long since i ever felt this way. But bad thing is, my heart actually bleeds tho! *OUCH* It's hurts la! den after u told me, no la, just kidding... den u start to tell me u really love me after. Damn la, so bad la! tho i know it's just kidding la, but for the moment i can feel the pain. Truthful enough, i really wanna last long in my next relationship, that's why after him i stay single for few months to take a clearer look to see who's the true one and my perfect soulmate. :) No point rushing right when you haven't find the right one. But right now, you, my love D is the guy that make me feel ' in love.' I'm willing to make any sacrifice for you, jolly well. Cause i know you worth. "Boyfriend is you choose yourself one, as i told myself i deserve a better guy someone that love me wholehheartedly and unselfishly. I just quarrelled with you and i just walked off. At the spite of moment, i walked off angrily. Now, i'm feeling so upset and disappointed tho!

2010-07-15T07:26:00.000-07:00

It's hard to be yourself when you don't even know who you are. Goodbye without reasons is the most painful one, love without reasons is the most beautiful one. Sometimes it's not about the breakup that hurts, but the flashback that come after. It's hard when you know you shouldn't hold on, and yet you're too in love to let go. In my loneliness, i started to think about alot of things that happened in my life. When i look back at somethings that make me cry, i laugh at it. But when i see things that make me laugh, i cry. Best revenge? i think, is smile... never let them knows it hurts. It's scary to know that nothing can kills you 0.1% germ :/ I have so many thoughts in my head, i just don't find the way to express them out. I always try to forget you, but... my life is perfect. cause my perfect life is you. We don't realise how much somethings mean to us until it's gone. I'm here with you on my mind the entire time, and sometimes i wonder do i ever crossed your mind? ;( You're the reason why i smile even the saddest part of my life. One of the secret of a long and fruitful life is to forgive i supposed. Band-aids are like smile, they cover up pain but deep down inside it's still hurts. -_- No matter how many times you're torn apart, you can always manage to pull yourself back in the end. People who judge, don't matter. People who matter, don't judge. Count your rainbows, not thunderstorms. ;) hehe. lol. Life isn't fair, but life isn't fair for everyone. That makes life fair. I shouldn't even started, knowing that love would drive me crazy and frustrated. You are in my life even if i'm not in yours.

2010-07-12T19:09:00.000-07:00

My mom was right, i missed her but she is at brisbane >,<. I wished for you to be here right beside me and never leave me.

2010-07-11T22:19:00.000-07:00

I'm super dishearted by you. I tried to sleep early last night, guess what i couldn't really fall deep asleep cause the thoughts that run through my mind was you. all images was you, just you. but you got yourself a girl, well... cool. i told myself, i wouldn't get a boy not until i meet the right one. but fast enough you have find yourself one. all the best toyou. ;) you have given me the best, memories i could ever long for. i will move on. ;) moving onnn..... i'm fine yeah! ;)) follow your heart, because if you always trust your mind, you'll always act on logic, and logic doesn't always lead to happiness.

P.S: If nothing last forever, can you please be my nothing?

2010-07-03T14:01:00.000-07:00

Yeah, finally headed down town, cine for movie! Watched Eclipse, twillight hehehe. After bq and neverland. It's been quite a while since i enjoyed myself to the fullest ;))

alicia and me <3>

Sam and me, good f.

2010-07-01T20:51:00.000-07:00

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him. Everyday that goes by it seems like. I discover something new about you to love it's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life, you touch me in away no one else ever has and gave me so many reasons to love you.

2010-06-27T06:09:00.000-07:00

I don't know who to trust... and i don't have the courage because i still.... anw i'm simply not interested cause they ain't true. BTW, said is easier den done ;) ewwww!

I'm really confused and utterly disappointed ! You once said, all is just a piece of shit and lie! I couldn't take it anymore. WHY like that ? You know what, i BELIEVE what goes around comes around. You will, trust me ;) I don't have to be like you, do u know why?! cause YOU simply disgust me ;) I drop tears uncontrollably... and I don't want to. know why? cause i'm like a fool. i believe ppl do change if you want to, but some ppl just don't?! GOSH! DISGUSTED and CHILDISH! EEEEWWWW!!! but i will wait and see hehehehe!! ARGH!!!! F U! =D i hate to hate ppl, but you will never change and worse u think you are so great. and u know, my heart is laughing.... what a joke you are. hahahhahahaha!!! ;)))))

2010-06-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself.

P.S: I love you.

2010-06-24T20:22:00.000-07:00

bless me with some true friends. that's it. 'm glad it's like great. 'm loving my new gf, ying =) she's so just so sweet and ultimately caring about me! 'll see u real soon. loves.

yeah, no make up for me yesterday because my eyes is infection, so raddish that my tears keep rolling down on my cheek. it's simply hurts me, that i throw away my contact lens immediately tho! =( but it's alright, so yest simply no make up, damn.

I enjoyed your accompanies, with J and ying, tho it's not all night long. but you seems so great! awesome =) I know i'm like camwhore! but know what, i'm super damn boring at home. I nearly rot at home, awww! =X

2010-06-23T23:58:00.002-07:00

Why can't you look me in the eyes one last time?. (A Day To Remember) When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?

It's hard to know where you're going when you
don't know where to stop. Don't walk away, And leave me without a reason. When there's too much to say, that hasn't been said.

2010-06-23T23:58:00.001-07:00

2010-06-23T21:29:00.000-07:00

Camwhore !!! i'm freaking confused. yes or no?

2010-06-22T22:02:00.001-07:00

If you must steal then steal away my sorrows. If you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life. And if you ,must cheat then please cheat death because i couldn't live a day without you.

2010-06-14T15:02:00.000-07:00

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.

P.S: My soul live within you and lives forever.

2010-06-14T12:06:00.001-07:00

Met up with jaslin ya, and co... chill out with them !~ =D

2010-06-14T09:33:00.001-07:00

My beloved Jaslin Jie ! she's my love, my everything lahs, DUHS!~ =)

2010-06-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

We all have imperfections, that's how love gets in and make they seem just perfect. They said true love won't hurt. But if it can't make us hurt, it's not love. Remember: "The time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be by yourself. Life's cruelest irony. Do not waste the life you got. Because if you did, you had mocked people who struggle very hard to live. Perhaps you can never forget pain. But you can learn from it, and let someone heals it. It takes a moment to fall in love, But it takes a lifetime to get over it. It's not about the past, it's not about the future. It's about what you can do, now. It's not about who made the mistakes. It's about who will fix it and make it right. Don't walk behind me, I may fart. Don't walk in front of me, I may kick you. Walk beside me. It’s not about who you’ve been with, it’s about who you end up with.

2010-06-13T07:06:00.001-07:00

Xiulian and me! =D

She's a very nice girl, i must confessed! awww... sweet right! =) lovessss!

2010-06-11T19:32:00.000-07:00

it's gonna be a great day ahead, 'm sure. for good! ;)

'll stop thinking bout you, i can. it's hurt alot, but i'll make it stop!

'll overcome it!

Here are some cam whore pics of myself taken yest, yeah, finally met up with them last night! what i can say here is they are great friends, woohoo. last night finally, we went to tanjong pagar pub at 3plus a.m. super cool lah, no choice cause mostly pub already closing, that's why. Anw, was waiting for xiu lian to send me our pics, hoho. she's such a nice girl =) tho 've been putting alot of my friends aeroplane, but ' never once thought of failing you. =)

2010-06-11T03:35:00.000-07:00

random picssssss of myself! i'm happy and sad! 've to face the facts that 've really lose you. 'm moving on =) 'll be good. ;)

2010-06-11T03:08:00.000-07:00

Yeah, just done rebonding after so long, =D thanks mom!

' still think of you so positively. i don't know why. i hate that sight.

'm getting no where. it's not what i want. that's it. i never once risk now. it's bad, but good. i don't trust anymore. camwhore freak cause my sis wasn't home with me =( meeting her later on and the rest! i couldn't care anymore. i just want to be happy ! =D but now waiting for mom to be back, accompanying her to cooking lesson, she specially go signed for this cause she knows i love japanese food! *UNAGI! my all time fav! i just love fish! my grandma did asked me before if my previous life if i'm a cat! hahaha. ewww... i have phoebia towards cat tho!

2010-06-10T06:03:00.000-07:00

There are reasons we met, reasons for the good and the bad times, and more importantly, a reason to an end. We have more to learn, more to experience, and more loving left in this lifetime.

2010-06-09T23:33:00.000-07:00

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to.

2010-06-09T22:07:00.000-07:00

Being Romantic for somebody is inevitable, but to norture your romantic feelings towards to that person is a choice and to fall out of love or getting out to the current relationship is also a "CHOICE.

2010-06-09T20:19:00.000-07:00

I don't mind waiting for my whole life if finally i can find someone like you..
who really love me as i am..
and show me how to be loved...
you have everything that i want..everything that i need..
Thanks God i found you...

2010-06-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

I miss you so so much! I SWEAR! DAMN IT. ='(

2010-05-29T20:45:00.000-07:00

I miss you, all i want is to wake up next to you every morning for the rest of my life, that's it!

2010-05-22T12:39:00.000-07:00

Indeed numb... what a quiet and peaceful saturday night spent at home. moodless to go out tho! I'm gonna miss you forever! Nightssss. =)

2010-05-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

more photos to come... waiting for my girlfriends to send those pics cause it's taken by her camera. =D lol. finally, headed to town, cine last night. met leonie, carissa, my sister and group of their friends there. it's pretty cool and i'm feeling more optimistic too! great! doing the right thing is indeed a blessing in disguise tho. =D but again, rebel they suggested. yeah, clubbing is fun and i enjoyed it alot. nahs, not my day, my friends came over to find me and instead we went to golden mild, one of the thai disco. they're few of my awesome friends tho! nice hanging out with them =) they simply make me laugh the entire day! =)

2010-05-20T22:52:00.000-07:00

It's been a hard and painful experience to get rid of you out of my mind ' heart ' esp. no matter what i told myself how hurtful your words is or .... i still love and care for you. my sis stopped me for that cause she couldn't bear to see me get hurt but all i can say is you'll always be in my heart and seriously i just want you to trust that i've never given up loving you ever since. But i guess this tiime you will never take a second glance tho... i change cause losing you is a fcuking experience which i never thought it will happen. i've wake up from this nightmare. i'm trying very hard to stay optimistic and i'm sure as long as i change everything will be better, much better for me ! =D those pics below is taken last week, went zirca as well as rebel... connect tho. i'm quite excited to go clubbing cause the last club i went was at last year on my cousin birthday, derrick... we celebrated at zouk, future. it's awesome! but i swear rebel was damn fun too tho! cause i simply love r&b! =D tho my mood wasn't there, but i enjoyed the music there alottt. and i saw someone, we had a awesome chat, he's one of the bouncer there. his smile, face, just brighten my day. thanks sweet! there's just too much den i expected. AWESOME!

不爱了。。。因为我累了。

慢慢的会知道的42件事♥

2010-05-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

慢慢的才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己　　02.慢慢的才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少, 　　03.慢慢的才知道,一个人要自己对自己好,因为真正关心你的人很少,有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己　　04.慢慢的才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的, 　　05.慢慢的才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西只能拥有一次, 　　06.慢慢的才知道,恋爱不一定是真心的,有可能是利益关系,有可能是攀比心理, 　　07.慢慢的才知道,不要和别人争论什么,因为那是没有结果的,无论谁对谁错, ...

2010-05-20T22:35:00.000-07:00

对不起，我爱你！

2010-05-13T14:41:00.001-07:00

愛一個人好容易但其實忘記很難大家認同嗎當你鐘意果個人時,有感覺的,想忘記都忘不了,唯一的是見到他,扮見唔到!控制的自己的思想,因為感覺呢樣嘢,好令自己痛苦,明明知道沒有可能,但是自己的個心總放不下......

2010-05-12T18:24:00.000-07:00

Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies. Love is not on what is seen outside or how long has he known you. Coz love is all about what’s inside. And how he/she sacrifices to see you smile. The hardest one to get over with is the one you never had. At night, when I fall fast asleep, I dream of a dream that I can’t keep. Because no matter how much I wish it was true, destiny will not let me be with you. If you intend to love someone, be sure to accept the challenge called changes. I should have realise this earlier on cause i never know losing you could cause me so much pain and agony. URGH! I had a dream last night. You were hanging on the edge of a cliff. I reached out my hands to you. But someone down there offered to catch you. You know why my tears fell? I saw you let go. Falling in love is like standing in a diving board waiting to jump. Whether you live or die depends upon 1 fact. Is there water in the pool or is your mind just telling you there is water because your eyes are closed? Falling in love is like smoking. You think its nothing then you can’t live without it. You can’t stop even though you know it’s wrong. You say you’re going to stop but then again, you never did. Deep Vein Thrombosis: a disorder caused by being in a fixed position for a long time. One way of telling us how important moving on is. He used to be so sweet and everything seemed so nice when we’re together. But suddenly everything changed. Now, do I miss him? No. I miss who I thought he was.

2010-04-29T14:22:00.000-07:00

I'm not really happy as i'm turning 21st birthday. mom actually sound that it's supposed to be grand but i'm kinda upset and so lost. But not too bad la, px treat me eat my all time favourite UNAGI, it's pretty expensive. Usually is mum bring me to eat my fav jap food, as usual unagi!!! heheeheh, i simply love it! I saw on the menu, it's not just the eel alone, but also with rice cost $18... kinda heartache for him... oops... but he said it's my birthday just order what i want to eat. I added that i'm kinda of full. But he insisted that i should order more. hahhaha. so i just added dessert, chocolate waffler. omg... it's god damn delicious! YUM YUM!!! Px have been always there for me ever since i know him ... he hardly fail... =) thanks tho!!! The following day which is april 29, yesterday... my cousins, derrick, sharmine and venus whom i've been living with them ever since i was young. Was very little to be exact... and not forgetting my sister, evon. she's my closest soul ever and someone who can read my mind. Yeah, guess what, we all met at tampines mall as they've booked the tickets online cause Iron man 2 was pretty full as most of the cinemas are occupied. Swee hong was my pri school mate till now, and i've been doting her alot tho... hehehe. didn't see her for ages... i rang her up as to watched the movie with us.without hesistating, she say ok, she go bathed first. sweet beloved girl ya! =D thanks for those who spent time with me on my birthday cause i really enjoyed and appreciated your accompanies. =)

2010-04-24T21:05:00.000-07:00

On friday night, kinda late but it's been quite sometime i went to bq. i rang up ting, she's with her bf leon and co. guess what, ting told me kenneth actually opened one more bottle while waiting for me. . cool. but think they don't remember i don't drink at all. heheheehe! but luckily they didn't keep asking me to drink . =D phew! =) actually i was super upset. i am so helpless... where are you when i need u the most? sighs. speechless....

I miss you... I need you...

thanks px, for always there for me when i needed a listening ear. you just matters alot to me . i really appreciate. =)

8 Years of friendship and still counting on...
And finally, i get my hair cut... 'm happy tho. Satisfied with my haircut. =) 'm turning 21 within a week, happy but 'm not sure how it will goes. never mind. i'm trying to stay optimistic lah!!! ='(

oh yeah, and i dyed it black too. anw, it's been super long, like years since i ever dye. but to me right now, my perference is black. =) lol. is just my perference man! =F

tell me baby, it isn't so fragile.....

'm so damn lost, numb the pain. kill the pain.

'm so lost without you.

2010-04-24T19:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys... 'm busy attending school for my course. didn't really have the opportunity and time to update! So if i've a lil time, below and here are some video clips. it's kinda interesting and funny tho. hope you enjoy it ya! =)
frankly, alot of things happened. 'm super duper depressed. didn't really know how to express, well jolly well he's my boy that didn't express anything at all, like he's angry with me...tsk tsk... but he's face changed. so always randomly i will ask him, do u have split personality? GOSH! sighssss.....anyway he've been very kind enough to bear my nonsense and tolerate everything which actually he's damn mad at me. but he didn't scold me at all... My heart sank. no matter what consequences or ending between us, to me you're the one for me. I just love you no matter what . but ....="""""""(((((((((((( <------- (CRY,upset)

2010-04-24T15:14:00.000-07:00

WHO'S MY DADDY???!

2010-04-14T20:28:00.000-07:00

2010-04-14T20:01:00.000-07:00

I fall for this song tremendously!!! AWESOME! Tho, i'm laggy a bit, hah~~!

YOUTUBERS LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER!!!

2010-04-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

2010-04-08T14:07:00.000-07:00

Went for interview... going to be independent soon! so excited, my birthday reaching soon! this month, and it's my 21 years old. grown up le, hehehehhee=D.

2010-04-08T00:57:00.000-07:00

Finally, i dyed my hair black. Yay! I like black hair. hehehehe=D. You may never know how important you are to me or how much I care for you, but you are and you will always be. Bear in mind that I couldnt afford to lose someone I've learned to care about so much. I miss the old him, how I wish I could turn back the time and undo all the mistakes I've made in the past, I learned something now, and I am never ever going to repeat the same mistake. I smile like nothing's wrong, but i go through stuff u know nothing about. It might be a small thing to you, but it means a huge thing to me.

2010-03-29T09:05:00.000-07:00

It's been quite sometimes i took photos with baby! finally... baby's botak now... ho ho . managed to capture some pics with him... WEBCAM! =D we've come this far, going 3rd months anniversary lohs! =)

BaBy botak, i just love him =D

gotcha, first time i smile so happily! i mean in cam la. LOL. heheeeheee.

he's trying to tell me he's fitter now la! hahaha!

i'm trying to tell... i ain't cute!!! LOL.

my boy.

i fall for this... =DDD. LOL.

he's going back tmr to camp.. after this two days of mc . LOL. sighssssss...

super random face of mine, i know! LOL. heheheeheheee

Good de bye, nights ya ! =) my stomach growling... but i ate nasi lemak for dinner just now ! -__-

P.S: i'm gonna miss you man, shit! =X

2010-03-28T12:03:00.000-07:00

Was over at baby's place... waiting for him to get home... there's alot of confusion and i'm lost at first. But it hurts me more deep inside seeing him hurt.;( breaks my heart man! AAAHHHhhhhh... Damn! =-( this naughty boy went over to meet df, he went out at afternoon and he's back at 10 p.m lahs. nice man! but luckily he's mom was at home with me =) orelse i make sure i tear him apart... hehehehehe..,=D but i still love him! and he will always be. and to be true la, it's so fcuking retard quarrelling constantly while we were out yesterday night, the next day when we were awake... and when he's back at night... stupid retard right, bleeding, meaning mentally and physically were hurt... sounds cool huh... =X but it isn't! after so much of incidents, den i came to realise his words from the bottom of his heart... seriously to me, he's worth. =) i love you baby!

P.S: He've become part of my life, and i swear it will always be.</center>

2010-03-18T10:02:00.000-07:00

He who is not impatient is not in love. If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much. When we cannot get what we love, we must love what is within our reach. However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path. Sometimes things that should be simple; Aren't, Like picking up your phone and telling him how you feel, It's just too hard. Life and love are like hide and seek. People spend their whole lives looking for love, but when they finally forget to look for it, they find it.Any guy can love a thousand girls...but only a rare guy can love one girl in a thousand ways.In every girls life there will always be those three guys...the one she loves, the one she hates, and the one she cant get enough of...and in the end...they're all the same guy. One would always want to think of oneself as being on the side of love, ready to recognize it and wish it well but, when confronted with it in others, one so often resented it, questioned its true nature, secretly dismissed the particular instance as folly or promiscuity. Was it merely jealousy, or a reluctance to admit so noble and enviable a sentiment in anyone but oneself? Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. We do not quit playing because we grow old, we grow old because we quit playing.

Love when you're ready, not when you're lonely. if i has toP.S: Love is hard to find and even harder to keep but if you have the right person makes its all worth it.

2010-03-18T07:14:00.000-07:00

No man is worth your tears, and when you find the man who is, he'll never make you cry.

Love received and love given comprise the best form of therapy. Tis said of love that it sometimes goes, sometimes flies; runs with one, walks gravely with another; turns a third into ice, and sets a fourth in a flame: it wounds one, another it kills: like lightning it begins and ends in the same moment: it makes that ...Never try to define love. Once defined love is confined. Once confined, It dies. You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation...and that is called loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else.Never try to define love. Once defined love is confined. Once confined, It dies. You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation...and that is called loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else.

P.S: How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone.

2010-03-18T04:48:00.000-07:00

I'm so sick of it, why always makes me feel so fcuk up! why u

Bestie, 7 YEARS of friendship and still counting on. for 7yrs, he never fail to be there for me when i'm down.

P.S: The trust, i needed the most. UNDERSTANDING? mummy!!! sighs.

2010-03-17T03:11:00.000-07:00

STUPID SCHOOL!!! ARGH! I feeling damn pissed la, fcuk up school! What's wrong with the fcuking world. Principal so? BIG fcuk! Want people to respect you, show some damn respect . Irresponsible action still can add on saying who ask me so silly to wait as i'm being told. you got to be kidding me. waited patiently and obviously like a fool, 2hours of waiting den end up telling me another thing! 'm proving that 'll be a good girl and grown up that 'll be responsible for my studies. den now what! you say like that den so be it uh? come on... don't teach your fcuking mother how to fcuk! PUKE! Disgusted and unbelieveable action done.
Pics taken at school... random pics ...

we may love d wrong person and cry for a wrong reason, but no matter how things go wrong one things for sure mistakes help us find d right person for a good reason.there are reasons we met, reasons for the good and the bad times, and more importantly, a reason to an end. We have more to learn, more to experience, and more loving left in this lifetime.

People who appreciate and care for others naturally lead happier and more fulfilling lives than those who do not, so some of your energy may be directed towards protecting the weak or innocent from harm.Who don't wish to have a true love? Who don't wish to meet up their Mr/ Ms Right? Everybody wants it to be good, but how many out there can have it? The most important, we should cherish it and don't take for granted.. Don't ever live with regrets.. There is no N.G. in life.

Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return.

she's my school mate, call ting ting =) she's super cute lahs.!

P.S: How good it feels to be me when i'm with you.

2010-03-16T05:23:00.000-07:00

I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you. Be strong, don't be discouraged, cause i'll always be there for you wherever you go. I Will Love You Till The End of The World Never Let Anything Break Us Apart Even Till Death

These are words from my heart, words that I learned after meeting you. I love love love love you & I miss miss miss yoou ! (:

Things are turning out well, as I've very strong determination that i die die must complete this course with efforts done. This is my final last chance to change and get my feet back on the ground, regardless of what, i must stand firm. Come to my senses, who's my loves one, who's the bad's! LOL! It's so bad to make one mistake, i hated myself for that faulty mistake made. I must stop those bad, and be contented with what i've. 'm changing better, and of course deep down i felt so much happier. Cause my surrounding loves one, is happy lahs. I always learned through the hard way, why must i always fall down den realised it's super painful. Just do the right thing man, DAMN! It's so good, hmm.. it felt so good to be praised by your loves one. =) 'm contented with what I have ya, appreciated. And 'm back to school once again... well said. actually 'm already graduated but looking back at my poor attendance and bad conducts really kills me deep down. In order to get back to school and retake my exams once again... getting back to the same old spot... 'm gonna work hard this time. 've been such a letdown. i strongly admit... but my loves one still hold on to me and never stop encouraging me and even motivates me. 'm AWAKE!!! 'll prove this last chance given to myself will be a happy ending. =D Awesome, isn't it... =)

PS: Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

2010-03-16T05:02:00.000-07:00

Standing strong takes everything you have, and then some. But when you stand strong deeply rooted in and you will grow and thrive. You will fulfill your destiny. Don't lose your heart and throw off your plans of life.

fear less - hope more, eat less - chew more, whine less - breathe more, talk less - say more, love more, and all good things will be yours.''

We struggle with time, we struggle with truth and authority. We struggle for peace and for purity and contentment. And that's just the beginning. Not by might nor power but by my spirit. We all experience trials, sadness and pain and once in a while. At times, grief and depression seem so overwhelming that we feel like giving up.

2010-03-14T21:25:00.000-07:00

I'm so upset, i swear it's killing me. I don't even realised what a loser i am. till i am awake... Gosh! what have become of me... 'm changing it. trust me..

2010-03-09T21:44:00.000-08:00

♥As long that you're keeping your head ups, Everything will be alright. (;The only thing that I know, is that you're the one that I want. ( =

Now that you've gone away i've realised every day I made a mistake, you're the best thing i've ever found.

I want noboby, nobody but you. ♥ You are the one that fills all my thoughts , ♥ dont ever give up if u truely love, coz u would get this love back!! Yeah! I made your smile and inside I'm also smiling :) Sometimes things that should be simple; Aren't, Like picking up your phone and telling him how you feel, It's just too hard. You filled my life with Ups & Down, but the most important thing is that you filled it with all your love. If love is pain, then pain is what you need to feel that you are with the person you love. I only forgot about the feelings that I have for you, They never went away, don't worry. [; ♥ If i could delete you away from my life, that would be amazing! heh, just joking =D Laying in the bed for hours just thinking about everything. If that one lil thing hadn't happen, it would be so much different. Aren't mirrors like the best idea ever. I love walking through snow, there's no footprint in it yet. =) Just because we're not so closed anymore doesn't mean I don't care about you anymore. I had a dream so realistic you had to think if it really happen or not. When i'm by myself, i scared myself with imagination. LOL.

2010-03-02T22:33:00.000-08:00

Here are some overdues pics taken few days back, AAHHH! I hate split personality! I've finally see it through, nice! I am damn speechless ... Lies, Hyprcrites... Bullshits!
You've stolen my heart,

Karma: What goes around comes around, time will tells everything. =)

I could truly say that i had fully grasp the essence of love if i had exquisitely mastered the craft of sacrificing and accepting. I'm desperately hanging onto something precious, not wanting to give up, but my hand feels the pain. ='(

2010-03-01T18:22:00.000-08:00

I'm back home after baby headed down to meet his friends. i didn't tagged along as i'm lazy and i'm super tired. I just want him to enjoy, if i tagged along he'll be worrying for me again. As i don't want him to be. Baby, thanks for holding onto this relationship, tho at times you continuous asked me what i want, so fierce and scary... till i don't even dare to look at you. holy shit, but we're still back to one one heart. for you, 'm more den willing to give up anything for you. i will =) you've prove to me alot of things and i know you've been a very good boy also! controlling very well of your temper, I LIKE! =D i simply couldn't resist my tears whenever i feel worried for you. i'm really afraid you didn't take well care of yourself! ='( but i know you will very well in army. Do the right stuffs ya as i told you, don't be kpo bout others ya. later many problems den our head will be superb big you know. you wouldn't like that to happen hor =D hehehe!

I love you and i'll tell you everyday. until the day you forget those things that hurt. i hate the things that make you hurt,and how i wish i could take them away. if only it could be done, i'll do it for sure. ... but it cannot be done ans i'm sure you wouldn't want me to do it. =)
i've spent the past hours crying over you, and it hasn't been the first time i'm doing this. and i'm not crying because you've done anything wrong, i'm crying because i know that you worth. i'm crying because you can actually begin to imagine what i feel for you. i may never get to prove what you mean to me. and you know i'll always told you i want you to be happy before anything else. the only thing that i know is you're the one that i want. love is not to talk but to listen. not to see but to understand. not to let go but to hold on. as long as the heart beats, the love exist. love is the road of the heart and you're the only one who can take this road.

P.S: If no love last forever, what is forever for ?

2010-03-01T13:57:00.000-08:00

That which is escaped now is pain to come. Generally, everything hurts. There is no gain without pain. But i'll follow my heart because the heart can only take so much. Pain of mind is much worse than the pain of the body. The rose and the thorn, and sorrow, and gladness are linked together.

2010-03-01T13:28:00.000-08:00

I'm going through a period of heartbreak, people with higher expectations from themselves are prone to heartbreak. Soothing words heal broken heart and mend it, i'm sure. The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

P.S: Save yourself first before you want to help others, if you couldn't even take care of yourself why bother others, right silly =) but i know you meant well!

2010-03-01T13:03:00.000-08:00

I'm over at baby's place for this past few days. Accompany hiim throu and fros. I miss him once he's not by my side. )= gosh! Baby! i know you've change your temper alot i can see. But changeto the best ya! i'm always here for you. I don't care how it is and i'll stay put here. you better love me more, don show your temper den super good. later my heart will auto went dead how! emotionless sia, not emotional anymore. hahahha! pulling your legs only la! chill! i love you baby! please be a good boy when you go army this friday alright. Stop worrying about me, 'll learn my mistakes and i know you truly meant well. Andd i really love you.

I swear the feelings sucks. Why can't i ?! I hate myself, really! I need the trust! but i know i must gain. This time, i must really seize the chance, if not DIE! Tears rolled down my cheeks, you always stay here with me. It's the most happiest moment in my life, and truthfully, i really treasure every moments spent with you. tho, there's always, sweet and sour moment but u know... girls are ' fan jian '! which i hate it, cause it's suffering >.<>And when the time comes, you've to endure again the pain and realize that it will forever leave a scar. a scar that will always remind you. For to be to love someone is to be selfless.

P.S: Don't ever give up if you truly love, cause this love you'll get back.

2010-02-28T02:40:00.000-08:00

My beloved baby boy! He's my love, my life! We've gone this far, gone through fcuk up obstacles, but my mr wee still hold on to me no matter it rains or shines. i'm shocked! baby, i will prove to you ya! those tears, i want you to know. It's worthwhile. =)

Here is some of myself , webcam time... hahaha! But i am damn super bored when baby's sound asleep behind me. ho ho.
I love this pic one!

2010-02-22T01:53:00.000-08:00

It's really different this time. omg shit!

I hate myself for being careless, dumb ass, fcuk those shits. ARGH! I hate to see the devil side of you. It's seems so holy shit. but luckily you turned into angel end of the day! =D
The truth was i love to run away from it. I don't wished to be remind of the past, cause it actually sux. kills me so much deep inside, argh. what's wrong with some ass hole brain sia. disgusted. speak for yourself, what goes around come around. i'm sure karma do exist. =)

I don't want to play a part of a broken hearted girl.

I love this spec above, it's without lens lah. super cool.
I fcuking miss you!

I fcuking hate those self-centered peeps. Put yourself into others shoe and feel how exactly it feels. doesn't mean don't express your sadness or heartache means i will be very happy. come on, what's there to show, so prove what right. i need your pure true heart, that's why i don't express, silly! i super duper love u already man. i'm so glad that you actually open your mouth and tell me exactly how you feels. thanks. i'm touched! may this love blessed us till the end of time.

I swear there's only you in my heart, thanks for not giving me up. I swear you're the one.

Don't ever doubt my love for you. You're my life,
My heart is small, can only placed one person's in. simple. understand right? =) good!!

2010-02-22T01:44:00.000-08:00

To my dearest esther =) i'm so happy and excited for you as your wedding day getting nearer each day. It's like a week after. First time, attending my friend's wedding!!! =D May you sparkle with happiness and shower with love by everyone ya. And peaceful life and blissful life bless for you always! Will definitely attend your gorgeous wedding on 7 march right. i still remember! I'm so glad that you dotes on me so much! =D loves loves!! this post is specially for you! Jie! =)

2010-02-20T10:55:00.000-08:00

My eyes super pain, infection. fcuk.

P.S: I'm depressed by how you reacted. well.

2010-02-19T23:29:00.000-08:00

So be it. natural is the best.

Yesterday was friday, stayed at home. nice ! rotting... and i took some photos of myself=D Slept early last night after hanging up the phone with baby! he didn't went out too, as he's tired. he seems more like my pig. hahaha. keep zzz. oops! sorry, baby! i love you! heheh. I want to see you soon, ass! =D

2010-02-19T05:33:00.000-08:00

Fcuk, my heart aches alot. when you didn't call me back, i waited. ARGH! why am i feeling so uneasy?! No way, it's gonna be like that. no way i'm gonna suffer. I will stand strong no matter what. i'm trying okay! LOL.

Here are some overdues pics of my love and his bro's. They are wonderful people to be with. =)

That is de feng and me =)

On the bottom is nat, i couldn't deny that he's damn fit now. hahahaha. LOL

Baby boy!

Nat and me, he's super fit man! hohohoho.

P.S: I'm falling deeper and deeper, how how how!

2010-02-18T19:55:00.000-08:00

Past few days, headed down town to meet baby for movie, yeah. after so long. em, i'm meant, past few days didn't see him. fcuking hell, i miss him damn ! zzz. hmm.... hate the feelings of missing someone.='( With his bros too ya, we watched true legend (2010). This is the movie to watch if you're a martial arts fanatic. But overall, one would come out of the cinema quite satisfied- it is afterall an inspiring story of one man's sheer determination to defy the odds and emerge as a true legend at the end. =) After, as usual, stayed overnight at baby's place for the past few days. As i'm over at his place, he's so sweet, when i told him the first sentence when i'm just awake, ya. he's too. i said, my throat very pain. he straight away go took water for me. omg, i supposed most of us will be lazy to do so as the first thing u open your eyes. He took care for me as i'm really not feeling very well, he accompany me through out those days. I love his accompany, i didn't want to risk anything to lose him. Cause i know i couldn't afford to. He's my piriorty, he's always there to listen to my nonsensical rubbish when i uttered anything to him even tho i know at the end of the day he's not interested, why i know he's not. cause of his tone of his voice. Damn super obvious ! hahaha. And baby, thanks for giving me the chance altho you know i disappoint you each time, but you once told me before, you'll give up if i make any mistakes. But you didn't. you still hold on to me and didn't scold me, didn't asked. just meet up with me and told me face to face how much you wanted me to be healthy, telling me about our future, i'm shocked, but i swear i'm glad. At the point of time i know you mean everything you've said and i know you're true. I love you, silly boy! =)

2010-02-18T16:13:00.000-08:00

I love my mummy alot alot, i swear. but i miss my baby boy more. SHIT! =X

On the top is my mummy and her husband. =) And on the bottom is some random pics of us, taken on the first day of chinese new year =D

This two girls here is our step dad's daughter, which is also our sisters. Yes, they are tall and we are short. nice one. =)

My sister and i , she's evon.

She's my precious sissy, tho we always quarrel over minor stuff but overall she's still my sissy. so definitely, i love her !

Baby, i'm not good at words, but i'm really touched for what you've done and said. I'm gonna cling onto you for the rest of your life. hahahah. i know you like ! heh. =D . I'm sure we'll overcome every obstacles together as long as you're with me. I don't care what the fcuk other ppl say, fcuk care. I just know i only love you and i love you for who you are. Remember our deal, after you're rmy... I mark your words!

Happy new year to all. =) Yes, finally. can collect lots of hongbao... hahahah. Woke up damn early on the first day of chinese new year, =). But sadly to say this year hongbao money super little... oops. =C. but's ok lahs. LOL. Ya, Valentine's Day is also on the first day of chinese new year. drop it, after i bai nian, i'm like freako, super tired... but i'm like super moody and my mind is like a must, go out on that day. tho... ya. i rang up my friends and headed down bq to find them. tho, i don't drink, but got friends accompany is really a comfy deep down in my my heart.

P.S: If time could stop, i'll stop right now!

2010-02-18T05:51:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New year to all =D . Sorry didn't have time to update my blog so recently.

2010-02-12T22:51:00.000-08:00

That is taken last week, while i accompany me my sister over to have her dinner. But actually i was rushing over to meet my baby's soon. YES! I super duper miss him, i swear. =D . Here are some random pics of my sister and i =)

P.S: It's such a weird feeling, damn.

2010-02-08T03:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a damn fcuk up day for me. alot of things came into my way. I swear i couldn't take it this anymore. I'm fcuking tired!!! ARGH! Fcuk off those irritates. Getting my nerves, shit. I couldn't control my temper anymore. FCUK! people don't appreciate. I know i'm one camwhore, =D I'm so damn confused, why can't people put themselves into the person shoe and see how it feels. stop fcuking take me for granted and treat me like fcuk when you know i didn't mean to. I don't know why am i saying all this shit right now. probably i can't vent my anger at anyone else, only here is best to say whatever is inside my heart. i can be forgiving because i love you, why can't you? I actually cried when i walked away so proudly. WTF! okay, i'll chill. let those photos do the talking...

2010-02-07T16:19:00.000-08:00

I am so disappointed and upset over my silly stupid action today. I made a fcuking big mistakes by walking away. Though i know that it will definitely affect our relationship. When i left for good as you sounded damn pissed. My heart sank as i really don't know what to say. This is the first time i made you so angry over me. I'm really sorry for walking away as i'm really lost. I need you back, love you always shower me when i'm beside you. Telling me countless time you really do love me for who am i. though you always told me that you don't sweet talk. No matter what you say, i trust. You gave me a special strong feeling that no one had given me, you gave me the assurance that you'll be my last romance. I don't want anything else but just you will do. No more goodbyes. I'll hold on to it.

2010-02-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

He matters more than anything now to me. The one i can never let go, i can go go to the extend that i might want to accept all his flaws. Shit , what's wrong with me. argh. i hate it. It's that what we call love? ! hmmm...

my beloved boy. =) below, that's some random pics of myself taken at baby's place...

P.S: I couldn't deny saying this, love is blind. Probably that's what we call love.

2010-02-05T05:50:00.000-08:00

Those past few days have been spending with my love, yes, overnight at baby's place. That's the crazy us. Baby's say he'll change his temper and attitude, yes la. i love it. =) i know you people find me lame, super nonsense right. But i swear this time is really diffs, the feeling he give me each time is really diffs. All i can say is, 'he's the one.' Lewis, i love you. He'll be my last romance.

P.S: This time is totally different, he never fail to make me feel he's the one.

2010-02-05T05:34:00.000-08:00

Great, today's friday and i'm at home watching tv. =)
Here are some overdues photosss.

2010-02-01T14:50:00.000-08:00

Things change, well people do changes as times pass by... Well to me, individual mindset definitely change, it's like how i judge things and handle stuffs. I would like to make myself clearly here, humans are selfish, jealous and greedy. there are really diffs type of people. see for yourself. and hello, people do make mistakes alright. ya ya, i know i'm just one ass here, had not being a good friend tho, *slap*. some people love to sow discord others and gossips. come on people, we've grown up. Get your own life. i believe in karma, what goes around comes around ya. i just want to be my bf's good girl now. HE's the one, that's all i can say. i don want to be so mushy lah =D here are some very super random pics of myself =)

2010-01-30T00:32:00.001-08:00

I don't know what's running through my mind. It could be a good thing and a bad thing.
But i choose to think positively so ya, no matter what i'll hold tightly to him. Learn to forgive and accept his flaws. Learn to give in to him. He's the one, my last romance.

2010-01-21T21:56:00.000-08:00

My last romance, 'eternity.'

2010-01-17T06:31:00.001-08:00

Realizing how and what kind of narrow-mindedness or selfishness your friend may have can help you figure out whether someone is doing it on consciously or unconsciously, even though the damage itself does not care about such things. That is why sometimes simply letting things go in a friendship can be good, and sometimes not letting things go in a friendship can be good.

2010-01-16T16:10:00.000-08:00

Get over it.

2010-01-16T04:52:00.000-08:00

Is it just so hard to trust again? Is it so hard to let go? Is it so hard to forget? I swear my mind is bursting just thinking of you, thinking that you've already walked out of my life. Fcuk the pain!