I really need u so badly.

Can u turn back n look ad me once again? look into my eyes n see the hurt n agony i'm feeling? u noe jus becos of u i feel so weak everyday, i really donno how to face my problem. cos i'm afraid to do so. can anyone knows n anyone to share the woes with me. i don wns walk alone. i need ur company, without u, its really meaningless.

i really missed him .

I'm starting to miss him. its been three days i didn't meet him. omg i miss him soo much . i don't know how to express my feelings but right on ur face, but i can tell u i had fallen for u. i really hope our love can be everlasting cos i only wish for u in my life. dear u don worry i had forgotten dex les. he no longer exist in my hart. u're now my one n only. i'm willing to give up everything just for u. i noe u don like me to say bout dex, i noe sometimes i still mentioned him. i'm sorry, after all, i only treat him as very normal friend. u're the one i love, not him anymore. i only wns u remember dat nothing can change my love for u. i don care wad ppl sae bout u , cos i had faith in u. i really loves u alot. i donno how my life will be without u. dear , i'm really contented having u only by my side. really contented . =)

My bb boy n me . in loves.

ad dear hse .

Fridae i went to meet dear. cos i quite seldom meet up wit him. i went to his place pei him. den my mum sae i 12p.m must reach home. ad the point of time, i'm lack of cash, den dear mum told him to sent me home, den we took mrt bk home. he sent me until my hse door. woots. so good sio!! x)) ai ni! x)) den we told me tat his frenz ask him go drink den i tell him don go, den the next dae, i'm meeting him ad his place, den i saw his pic, he bluff me leys. he got go drink. lol! i'm shocked tat he bluff me, but i tell him lers, don bluff me, at least tell me the truth better. no point lying. when i noe u lied, it will become more worse. lols. =X . sat we can't go out cos his family need to do something important ad home, den we stay ad home. his sis n his dadn mum r ad home too. his sis is friendly n we had a nice conversation chatting. she is understanding. loves loves. xD . her mum is a great mum , ad times she is a good listener n a good adviser. she let me erealised how important my mum is, n made me realised i must study. i will heed the advise as i noe it will somehow benefits my future. I felt so warm being with them. missed xD

I've tried, its hard to forget .

Life's too short to cry over spilled milk . Y r u so important in my heart? i realli wns give up. cos u treat me badly. so bad tat i can't forget. y must u hurt me so deep.. i cried like 1 crazy girl for u. i put down my ego, just for u. but look ad wat u hav done, u simply jus 1 word, u ruined my life!!!

Loves life up n downs.

Jus come bk from sch. argh. so tired. don feel like studying sia.. hmm!!! My mum keep complaining things to my bf, pissed off!! =x. hate tat!! complain!! complain!! complain!! wat the....hell. !! =.="!! i'm starting to loves him more, cos he's e guy who really dotes me n proves to me everything, i wouldn't leave u unless u betray my love! +.+"! or else u will be the guy i loves n cherish always. can sae for e rest of my loves life. xDD . hate mum, tolong don complain le lahs. argh!! so PISSED OFF!

I'm contented to have you .

Dear, thx for ur care n concern. i'm touched. i'm feeling tat i can't live without u by my side . U were always beside me when i'm ups n downs . U're my angel boy. U told me before tat u will nv mentioned break no matter wat, now i wns tell u , i will nv mentioned break no matter wat!! i truly wns a everlasting relationship with you. I'm contented to have u ! I loves u dear!!

U're my one n only one .

I'm starting to love him more!!

I feel tat i'm so madly in love with him. He treat me good!! hahs!! Now i only wish to be with him only!! JASON U're e only guy i wns in my life . i wil listen to u de ok. i wun disappoint u , i will go to school ok!! n listen to mummy de ok!!! don worry for me. actually i really can't bear to see u go army. i will very very miss u de sio!! but nbm, i will wait for u.

Outing to kbox .

Todae i nv meet dear!! so miss him, hais. one dae nv meet him den start to miss him les. hmm...todae went kbox with yong sien. he very good sia. bring me go kbox , enjoy singing sio!! hahs!! nice guy too!!

Our story starts on 29.12.06

DEar do tis pic for me de!! nice hor!! hahas!! but tis two pic combined is i take de!! hahas!! loves him !!

dear n me.

Shopping daes .

Yesterdae waas e first dae of school. went to e stupid sch . hate to study tat sch cos its so far from my hse. take bus until there need 1 hr to travel . i'm very tired everytime i reached sch. i hate e course . i reached sch yesterdae de donno where to go, den i after staying ad sch for bout 2 hrs, den i go home. beri tired. den i take cab home. den dear called me. cos he wns to buy clothes. den i pei him go bugis to buy. i helped him choose. hahas. he gives me money n i help him choose 1 pants n 1 clothes. e design beri nice. hahas. den he also choose 1 clothes. wa. much nicer. i very happy .lol. den dear asked me wan buy wat, den i sae don wns. den we went to parco to see clothes. den i went in to blossom shop. den isaw a tube veri nice sia. den he bought for me!! hahs! happy sia!! mwahs!! xDD. we went to bugis with, chai yan n his bf'boon kiat'. they veri good. we went shopping together. chai yan try 1 dress , very nice sia. but she nv buy, ! x((. wasted. lols. we den went to watch movie. "DEATH NOTEs 2"! the show starts ad 6.30 p.m . den we went for some shoppings. wakaka. happy shoppings. before tat , while only me n dear n boon kiat were ad mos burger sitiing down n waiting for chai yan, boon kait n his gf quarrel, so shagged, don wns them to quarrel,x((!! den boon kiat went off jus like ta. den only left me n dear. lols. we sit down n he were very tired. cos he whole day haven slp. den he give me 1 black face n ignore me lol. i like stupid entertain him. but he jus ignore! think he angry lah. n also veri tired. cos e guy msg me think he don like ba. but frankly speaking, "dear" u must trust me ok! no matter wat happen i wun jus leave you like tat. i noe who truly treat me good n care bout me, no one else except for u. den chai yan msg me "GOOD NEWS"! she n boon kiat hao le.ahahas!! happy sio! they den come bk to find us. den after watching movies. the time is bout 8.45p.m . actually dear suggest to go home, as he noe i can't go home late, but dear say he hungry, as we haven eaten our dinner. den we went to cafe to have our sumptous meal. ahas! its expensive wors! xDD! dear starts to worry for me as its late. we den take cab n he sent me home. wat a good bf i havE!! x))! i will cherish u de! xD!

Lame quarrel !!

Yesterdae i work last day ad bugis. cos very sian ah. stand until tired den fuking boring, den i quit n went bk to school. yesterdae he jealous sia. lols. cos my fren meeting me to eat dinner but the time is bout supper cos its bout midnight . i from jurong east take cab until bugis fetch my fren den go my hse there, ad simpang bedok eat prata!! haha. but i eat hor fun den my fren eat prata, den he eat brought 2 prata, den he eat 1 only , den i eat finish liao, den i start hav gastric pain, den he see me like tat, den he stop eating cos see i like very xing ku!! its true! i hardly can tok to him cos no strength ad all sia!! cos i too late den eat, dats y! but used to it le, everytime like tat!! den he go cor warm water for me!!actually suppose to feel better, but my gastric no better cos i drink ice lemon tea den drink warm water den like very awkward, den my stomach beri pain sio!! lols. i donno y my dear so not understanding, i understand dat he is jealous, but its jus fren after all, i never bluff him mah! speaks the truth. cos i nev do anything wrong, den he not understanding de los!! DON UNDERSTAND!! =XXXX

No more tears to shed cos its all dry up.

Its hard to forget, if u wanna leave me 1 day, den u shouldn't hav enter my love life. u ruin my loves life!! My life is still happy without u, no more tears to shed cos its all dry up. I've already done my part . I've love u until the maxi limit. i really donno wat can i do. jus now afternoon i went to work den i bought a watch, den my frenz sae e watch dex oso got. wat the... who wns same as him sia.!! dots. i donno y whenever i can forget him n not think bout him, den something will remind me n makes mi think bout him..hais. y like dat, really so hard mehs..but i don wish to think les..i alr sae les. u treat me like dat, i only wish to be with my dear jason as long as ever. cos he is good to me, he very good, everytime come my work place there stand like a log n pei me!! i'm so blessed to have him. xDD . jus now on e way home, dear called me den donno we tok until beri pek cek den we quarrel den i hang up his phone. i nearly break with him, but he don wan . lols. den he try tok things out with me. den we ok le los. if he don wns break, means he truly loves me!! I already sae les, i will cherish u . i promise. !! x))

Love is blind.

I'm so in love with my darling, he cares so much for me sio. he todae come bugis find me, he reach my work place ad bout 5plus den he go buy food for me eat!! he so good wors. ai si ta le!!! he stand ad my workplace there like one statue, omg! so poor thing!! loves him loads loads. xD. sat i m taking off!! hahas. so happy, can pei my dear whole day le sia. hehez. so happy wors!! x)) . miss him!! tmr still got work . sianx arh. ! k la. i go slp le. tata. =))

I'm tired of working. lol

Today i reach work place ad bout 12.45p.m cos i 1p.m must reach mahs. den help e auntie to open e shop los. before i went to e shop, i'm hungry so i went to buy pancake n eat. cos so hungry. haven eat sia. i work ad bugis street , sell clothed 1 los. so fuking tired sio. keep standing up n serve customers, still must see customers de "jiao bin"!! PuKED!! lols. i keep on putting a smiling face ad everyone. lols. sick of smiling. sux sio! 1 dae pay only get 40dollars, no commision sia. so less!! but bo pian. i jus work for 3 daes only. lol. bout 5 plus den i eat chicken rice. must sit ad shop eat los. hard to eat sia. funny sio!! hais. now i only wan earn money i don wan think so much. it wun help. i oso wns hao hao with jason only! other thing i never go think! anw, its e past think le oso wun come back! only makes myself more miserable!! no point. so heartbroken also no use. x((!! hm, k la. now alr 12 a.m les. i go zzzz les. tmr still need to work. still must pei my fren go eat breakfast den go work together. lols! x))

I felt so loved by him .

Yesterday jus started working. so tired sio. stand from 12 to 10 plus, of cos gt sit. but not for long. so tired, my leg lyk step on lemon sia. lols. today start work ad 1. den my darling boy comes n visit me while i'm working. hahs! he so good, go buy food for me to eat, n pei me till 7 , den he go work le los, cos he work at 8p.m de. till three a.m in e morning. so tired for him. hais. i felt so blessed to hav him ard. he is always there for me when i needed him. he told me yes tad he scared i leave him. once again, dear, i wun leave u, i will put down my past n will never think about him anymore again. i promise. now my love life, i only wns to have u shining e path n walking along with me happily ever. u told me, u will not leave me no matter it rains or shines, n tad goes for me too. i only wns to be blessed with u. i now noe who really loves me n treat me good. the person is none other den u."dear"!!


On new year countdown dat dae, i went to boat quay wit my dear, den actually wns to go to a pub but e pub too expensive, den dear bring me to another pub call JAB 1 . cos his frenz inside den his bro bring us in. the pub very nice sia. got ktv . n his frenz call us to drink martell plus green tea. still gt vooka, den ym dear don let me drink. but i gt drink until a bit, den his fren keep call him drink, den he drink until his face veri red den he tell me he feel like vomiting, i'm very worried bout him. i wns to help he drink, but he insist. so sad. den his fren boon kiat, one of his brother, beri goos leys, help him drink. den we went out of e pub, boon kiat drunk le. den he lie ad e roadside, den gt 1 ang mo lady sit beside him n ask if he is ok, den i sae his fine, den e ang mo lady took pic wit boon kiat while he lie on e floor. lols. he's drunk sio. so funny. hahs! den they started vomiting. lol. hm, i dunno whether tis is fate, i jus mentioned tad wen we leaving e pub, once i step out of e pu, i saw 1 guy toking to one girl outside JAB 1, den i started to look ad e guy cos he looks familiar, when i saw his jeans, its much familiar, den i saw his botak n look carefully ad his face, OMG!! is dex!! lols. i'm shocked n stunned. i'm surprised. den he smile ad me. den i smile bk. den i dunno y my hart pain, den i drop tears in front of my bf, lol. my bf sae he very du lann. but he nvr sae anything as he noe dat its hard to forget, but i'm willing to forget n move on with my bb boy! I felt so loved by ' Jason ' . Happily with u ever. xDD .