Baby, i miss u so .

From the very day i leave you, i should have know i might regret. why everything have to come to the end. our love is so strong n steady at first. why it turns to be this way that makes me feel that you and i were never meant to be. i should have wake up cos in my life, you are the one and only guy that are faithful and loyal to me. that really put in your loves towards me . wherever someone, which i be with recently say be with me for bout a month, says ' very sian ' ! can anyone tell me why got this kind of guy exist ? why why why? why am i so blind. my mum told me before, see guys please open your eyes 'big big' ~emphasis~! i am so blinded by love. i thought that he's so true, maybe he can replace jason somehow, but now den i see he's worse den other guy. i didn't say i with him 'more n more sian', he is not so handsome, still can have the guts to say sian? omg! really very pissed off. my friend say his face like kena lorry bang before still can say ppl. don understand why on earth have this kind of guy. shannon, my good friend, told me once before not to be with him, i didn't listen because i choose to trust him. but in the end, i regretted so much being with him, thanks to joker!! -_-"! i am so wrong. is that my retribution that last time i have hurt jason so much? den all after jason my bf treat me like fcuk! if times can turn back, i will still choose to love jason! i never regretted loving you. you are the one n only that worth me begging for you to come back to me and you will be the only guy. because you are worth doing it. though my mum is strict, but my mum told me before jason is a very responsible guy. thats what my mum said. when i heard that, i feel that i can never leave him. jason, i really hope u will understand why the very last time i choose to leave you, i'm so depressed and so controlled. i need freedom, but you didn't give me. and alot of things came into our way, but somehow we still overcome those barrier together. i really hope we are meant to be . i miss u baby . )'=