~ Heartbroken ~

I was like at home for the whole day. i couldn't sleep at all .but at about 4 plus , my friend ask me out as they have jus finsh drinking at boat quay. so went rounding with them for a while though . today, i call my ex due to have to sort out the problem because i'm so stressed up over the problem . he's like so stressed up, i'm so sorry. keep hesistating you over that problem. i didn't mean to as i am so lonely facing the problem alone and i know how u feel too. I'm sorry . actually to be honest, i felt so hurt whenever u ignored me or don't hack care me at all. i lied to myself and everyone that i don't love you anymore. i still do. though at first u really treat me very good, and i really appreciated alot, maybe i didn't showed out because i don't know how to express my feelings, but in the end u still hurt me like giant shit! i really miss you though, i don't know why. everyone told me to forget you, but how could you possibly forget someone within a few weeks ? i really put in my heart to love you, and this is how u treat me. you will never know how upset i am right now. i felt so hurt right now whenever i think of you. probably u will never know because u just treat our relationship like nothing. if u really care, u wouldn't leave me without saying a word . do u know how i feel . no, u don't know. maybe my friend is right, u are still playful. but i really hope u r matured enough to think for me. i hope u will. i love you still .