I've been thinking so much about us.. I know sometimes i really disappoint you by doing things which really can't help it but scold me.. I know you mean well.. And i know you didn't mean to.. I hated myself alot.. YES!! i will CHANGE!! I SWEAR I WILL!! I really don't wish to disappoint you anymore.. I know you couldn't stand guys msg me and when i return their msg.. I know that blows your head off, i'm sorry baby.. I just felt that its alright.. Since you don't like it, den i will change, WILL!! Thanks baby for always being there to let me lean on when i am so upset.. I quarrel with you last night... You told me it breaks your heart, don you know my heart hurts more den you do ? You asked me why i won't cry.. It's only i'm just being strong.. I really don't know how to express my feelings.. Not i'm being more man or what either.. I cried end of the day cause i couldn't take it anymore.. I cried not because i need your sympathy.. Is because i couldn't cried alone in silent anymore.. You asked me alot of times why i always don't hold on and keep giving up.. is because i have no confidence in holding on.. I'm so afraid of getting hurt.. And i'm so afraid of losing you.. Thanks for everything.. No matter what, i still love you and with everything.. I won't let it go, i will hold on to it no matter what obstacles we're going through.. I really enjoyed myself this period of time with you and i wish to continue be with you.. I hope this relationship will take us somewhere.. Believe in ourselves.. If you love that someone, forgive.. If you love that someone, trust.. And i only love you.