I'm having deep thoughts this few days ever since you carried too far that day. Though i didn't speak or neither did i say anything but my heart just can't be right. And my mind can't be peace. I'm someone that can forgive but i can't never forget. I'm feeling so uneasy all over whenever i think of the incident. What should i do? I'm feeling so paronoid NOW! Each and times whenever i reflect back. I need a listening ears cause i feel like shouting out. I'm i torturing myself this way? Why i can still go on like nothing happened before? I really don't know and i don't understand what's wrong with me. Can i really forgive him? I want to, but... I'm afraid it will carry me till the end of my life. It's just too torturing. I'm not feeling very happy ever since. And i'm always carrying a fake smile, trying to be happy when i'm not. Acting like nothing actually happened but i know clearly what happened and i don't derserve that, you know. Saying sorry and that's it? Impossible right? how could it be this way? ARGH!! I'm having a very big head now. i need someone that really cares for me here right now! Sighs.

P.S: I miss those days you once showered me your love so blissfully, but things changed.