I'm feeling so devastated right now. Today isn't the day for me. When i woke up, my hp was off as last night i fall asleep quite early. The first call i recieved was my mum calling me, her tone was disappointed. And my heart sank, i actually forgotten the timing that i'm supposed to go to school. I started preparing and went to school. I don't want to disappoint her anymore. I love my mum, she told me one thing on the phone that whenever i think of, i'll drop tears. She said she doesn't want me to get involved in those unpleasant stuff, if anything happens to me, she doesn't want to live either. My heart totally sank, my heart is broken. I swear i never wants to upset her. She is going to australia within this few days for work and will be there for about two weeks. I'm missing her now. She's such a great mum and i hated myself for disappoint her so much. She never give me up no matter how bad it is. I swear this time i'll really study hard and quit smoking as she doesn't want me to, cause she say it's bad for health. To me, family always come first. She took off tomorrow, and i'll be seeing her later on for lunch (= When she's back, i'll be moving to yishun to live with her. I'm also waiting for my dear sister to move to yishun with us. I miss those days when mum and sis will always stick together through thicks and thins for the past years.