How i wish he's mine .

I'm damn sad over wad happen between mi n him. i nvr thought things would turn out so bad. he is not a responsible guy. i thought he is a guy tat will be serious with. hais.** i'm totally insane to have fallen back for him. or else i wouldn't hab turn out in this way. tmr he is gg army les. hm. good for him. hope he can go in n think properly uh. but it won't be any turning point. as i'm too hurt by him. i send him a msg jus now ad bout 8pm sayin tat " i'm too disappointed by tis relationship n badly hurt by him, n i keep droping tears cos he lie to mi ". he replied saying he is very sorry. at the point of time, i was at tampines mrt station. when i saw the msg of him saying sorry, i cried badly. i feel like dying right on e spot. omg, sry as in wat!! i don wanna him to apologise, i wns him to turn bk, but it wasn't wat i wan. hais. my heart shattered into million of pieces. i suddenly can't moved cos my heart was damn hurt. Y mi ? tat he wanna hurt? i loved him so muh. n everything dat i can't imagine jus happened wit a blink of eyes. everything was so fast tat i really can't take it. i got a nice frens, he consoled me. n made mi feel tat someone still dotes mi. i cried painfully on his shoulder, n he jus patt me n tell mi not to cry. i cry lyk hell, den he scolded me n told mi to stop crying. not worth it. den istop crying n wept away my tears. n i smoke 1 stick of cigg. den he toks to mi n makes mi feel much better. den i dunno y my heart don feel so pain. mayb his adore made me feel touched cos ad e point of time, when i'm really down, he was there for mi. 'i guess e thing i can only do is to forget him, i must do it.' "EMPHASIS"!! anyway lets nature takes its course.