Yesterday went to bugis, rushing to jean yip to dyed my hair. By coincidence i saw yi hui.. she accompany me while i was doing my hair. so sweet of her .

You know i love you.

I'm so confused, why u always enter my life so suddenly.. makes me so lost. can someone teach me what to do.. but i still love my baby boy.. u hurt me so much last time and now u want me back..doesn't mean u want means i must be back with you, understand.. actually i am so tired of you already, jus leave me alone. i rather i didn't saw u that day. you say those words to me when i don't give a damn already..

My love.

I'm back with my dear (=. really hope this time he will treasure and of course, i will treasure you. now at dear's house waiting for him to bath finish, he leaving for work, den i go home. you will always be my one and only baby boy. i hope this time we can start over again. i treasure every minute with you. so i hope u will cherish me. don upset me again please, because it really hurts alot. i love you baby. faster bath!! bath always damn long! (=

I love my boy.

When you're gone.

I'm trying to be strong. i wanna move on. why am i stuck here. i feel so uncomfortable right now. very depressing, very sad, very disappointed. many thinking, many thoughts. I'm wondering how long can i still pretend. i couldn't take it anymore. i've never felt this way before. everything that i do, reminds me of you. i've never sort of, need you there when i cry. even though we are far apart, send me your love though we are apart. i do cherish you. when u walk away, i count every steps that you take, do you see how much i need you right now. i miss you.

Breakdown please .

i cant control my emotions. i cant control my absurb attitude. i cant control jealousy. i cant control possesiveness. when one fall too many times, you'll be afraid to fall again. the phobia grew rapidly like a snowball effect. protecting yourself by changing drastically & it ended up that your everything became disastrous. you clearly know that it's really extremely disastrous but you chose to hide from it. it then became a habit to hide from problems you face in your everyday life. and it really turned from bad to worst.and the worst thing ever was that your brain cant function properly. I wonder if i could watch u pass by, i watch the stars as they shine, i wonder if its true that they were flakes. again i failed to draw the line. i kept throwing myself to you, i miss and hate over the sight. if i pray realy hard like i did the last time, will i still get what i long for? and now when i believe when they say peoply always come running back. sometimes in life things happen for a reason, while other times it makes no sense at all. but believe me, i will try to make it the last. in my eyes, it ain't worth it anymore. do u feel that suddenly like it doesn't meant what it used to mean. i am wondering would i ever have the chance to ever look back regretting what i chose. will i ever look back and wonder why i let a good one go, or will i look back and smile and think that it was worth the risk. till now, i still miss him, my sunshine from the past. looks like i am not as strong as i thought. i need a break down seriously. i need a let down immediately. i thought it was a play but i lose control and here i am standing and wonder why did i ever wanna rush it while i had it at the best point of the time. it was only you and me, now its gone. washed away. washed me away too.

Joseph kor kor .

Taken at S.O.S with joseph kor. just happen to saw him. coincidence, but honestly, he loves to take pics. haha .

A memorial of boonsterino!

Unforgotten memories, remb we saw shooting stars together. haha. I love this pic. he's a funny boy. though this pic was took sometimes ago. but its nice, i like it. (= anw, we are jus friends. (=

Enjoyable day .

Meet up with celest at Marriot . because i meeting tai zi at there . talk to him a while den celest wanna go far east bought eye lash . we go inovi see eye lash. i bought one, that cost 14dollars, pretty expensive right. but celest bought three! lol. just the both of us we go shoppings, see clothes. i bought one top and a pair of shoe at love potion. after shopping for few hours, we were pretty hungry. we went to cineleisure basement to eat. we went to catch a movie " ORPHANAGE ". pretty nice. but colin and guangwei catch up with us for the movie too. they came while we were eating. they are nice. (=. the movie start at 10.15. after our show is bout 12plus. plus its sunday. many places closed early. we suggested going swiss hotel to have red wine, but sadly it closed at 1.30. swiss hotel is up to 77 storey. damn nice. the views, i took . after suggested where we to go, we decided to go clarke quay, the candy bar. luckily its still open. we ordered a bottle of red wine . and we ordered some finger food. after drinking the bottle of red wine, we decided to go colin's condo downstair the swimming pool side to chilled. celest and me decided to went down for some swim during 3 plus. haha. but actually we are not allowed to do so. but we still managed to swim. very cold. i shivered in the water. simply enjoyable day. (=

Bored .

Meet up with junyi they all a while for supper. at ah girl's car . bored .

~ Heartbroken ~

I was like at home for the whole day. i couldn't sleep at all .but at about 4 plus , my friend ask me out as they have jus finsh drinking at boat quay. so went rounding with them for a while though . today, i call my ex due to have to sort out the problem because i'm so stressed up over the problem . he's like so stressed up, i'm so sorry. keep hesistating you over that problem. i didn't mean to as i am so lonely facing the problem alone and i know how u feel too. I'm sorry . actually to be honest, i felt so hurt whenever u ignored me or don't hack care me at all. i lied to myself and everyone that i don't love you anymore. i still do. though at first u really treat me very good, and i really appreciated alot, maybe i didn't showed out because i don't know how to express my feelings, but in the end u still hurt me like giant shit! i really miss you though, i don't know why. everyone told me to forget you, but how could you possibly forget someone within a few weeks ? i really put in my heart to love you, and this is how u treat me. you will never know how upset i am right now. i felt so hurt right now whenever i think of you. probably u will never know because u just treat our relationship like nothing. if u really care, u wouldn't leave me without saying a word . do u know how i feel . no, u don't know. maybe my friend is right, u are still playful. but i really hope u r matured enough to think for me. i hope u will. i love you still .

因为爱， 所以爱.

i live my life for myself n nt for others ツ. someday you'll cry for me, like i cried for you, someday you'll miss me, like i missed you.. someday you'll need me, like i needed you.. someday you'll love me, but i won't love you. Always play hard to get," she said, "really. Trust me."
♡ All I ask for is the opportunity to prove that guys alone cant make me happy. I'm aint strong no more yes i'll always try my best to smile to laugh like nothing's gonna happen, acting like i'm happy when i'm not. I need love and care like everybody does but it seems so hard on me. a girl wh0 seems t0 be s0 str0ng, but daily continues to break. "words can't express what you mean to me ."

I'm not happy .

Broken Vow - Lara Fabian

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end
Tell me againI want to hear
Who broke my faith in
all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own
I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tearsyou never shed
Give me the touch
That one youpromised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to life
than only bitterness
and lies
I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end
I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

' Bleeding love '

'Closed off from love
I didn?t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you?re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone?s looking round
Thinking I?m going crazy

But I don?t care what they say
I?m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don?t know the truth
My heart?s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing?s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I?m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don?t care what they say


I?m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don?t know the truth
My heart?s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it?s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I?ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don?t care what they say
I?m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don?t know the truth
My heart?s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love'

Is it possible,maybe to have a love so strong that nothing could ever compare,a love that defines all i have in mind
and im holding back nothing
for the look in your eyes.

Lies of love .

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back.
Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be contented it grew in yours.

Shannon place chilled .

When i reached shannon house, he first looked and words is " you hor.." obviously he is referring to me, being silly and naive. go believe that asshole. now at shannon house . he's playing guiter just now. so cute of him. haha. i snapshot him playing guiter. my siser was here with me too.

I can't stop thinking of you .

Do you know how much i miss you? but u just don't seems to care. my heart aches so badly. i only need you to call me and tell me, that all this thing wasn't meant to be. baby, but i was so wrong. you hurt me badly . what goes around comes around .

Look at the cute baby.

yesterday went to kat's bf bro's chalet. actually also carissa's birthday. went there to meet kat too. look ad her adorable baby. so cute.

I don't wish to pretend anymore .

I really wish i could call you now and tell you i'm feeling very sad. I wish to tell you i'm afraid of being alone. I really hope that you could tell me not to worry and everything's gonna be alright. I wish that i could speak out everything from my heart to you. I really hope..i really do. But i know its impossible. Things will never be the same anymore. Am i being too naive or positive? I need to know, cos i couldn't figure it out. Humans are all greedy and selfish. Ive been hurt before, i've always believe one love, one heart. Even it''s a triangle relationship, i believe there would always be one person who earns more love than another do. When they have the chance to stop hurting, they continue hurting. They make up lies to cover, they escaped to prevent explanatiuons. Some guys are so irresponsible and coward. Dare to eat, don dare to clean mouth, i hate this kind of guys to the extreme.

I want to be your girlfriend .

I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And Hell Yeah
I’m the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right

She’s like so whatever
And you could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend


I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don’t want to hear you say her name ever again


In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There’s no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She’s so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!

I still loves you .

my precious leonie (=

That day went to tampines mart after leonie's work. she go find her bf (13). they are always so loving . envy their love (= . leonie's bf went with his bros to pasir ris to do some stuff, so me n leonie stay over at tamp mart to have our dinner, damn hunger. we took some pics after eaten our dinner. (= loves her.

Baby, i miss u so .

From the very day i leave you, i should have know i might regret. why everything have to come to the end. our love is so strong n steady at first. why it turns to be this way that makes me feel that you and i were never meant to be. i should have wake up cos in my life, you are the one and only guy that are faithful and loyal to me. that really put in your loves towards me . wherever someone, which i be with recently say be with me for bout a month, says ' very sian ' ! can anyone tell me why got this kind of guy exist ? why why why? why am i so blind. my mum told me before, see guys please open your eyes 'big big' ~emphasis~! i am so blinded by love. i thought that he's so true, maybe he can replace jason somehow, but now den i see he's worse den other guy. i didn't say i with him 'more n more sian', he is not so handsome, still can have the guts to say sian? omg! really very pissed off. my friend say his face like kena lorry bang before still can say ppl. don understand why on earth have this kind of guy. shannon, my good friend, told me once before not to be with him, i didn't listen because i choose to trust him. but in the end, i regretted so much being with him, thanks to joker!! -_-"! i am so wrong. is that my retribution that last time i have hurt jason so much? den all after jason my bf treat me like fcuk! if times can turn back, i will still choose to love jason! i never regretted loving you. you are the one n only that worth me begging for you to come back to me and you will be the only guy. because you are worth doing it. though my mum is strict, but my mum told me before jason is a very responsible guy. thats what my mum said. when i heard that, i feel that i can never leave him. jason, i really hope u will understand why the very last time i choose to leave you, i'm so depressed and so controlled. i need freedom, but you didn't give me. and alot of things came into our way, but somehow we still overcome those barrier together. i really hope we are meant to be . i miss u baby . )'=

I can't be myself anymore .

I don't know what happen to me . i'm like so lost and confused . i felt so depressed, not because of him but because of how am i going to do ? i keep crying . crying till my tears had dried up . till my heart had become numb . i'm so hurt that i become speechless . why this kind of thing happen to me ? can anyone tell me why ? i don't wish this thing would happen to me. i miss jason! u r still e only one that treat me e best . at first i really thought that noel can replaced jason . but now i finally see the truth in him .he's worst than i ever think of . all my friend say 'angela, why ur taste become like that' ? 'I don't mind bout his appearance' as long as he is good . but now things seems that its not this way. i think i'm blinded by him .

Everything is over ,he can't be trusted .

He had hurt me damn lots . keep breaking up n wanting to patch, treat me as what, as if i no guy wan . i don't give a fucking damn to him sia . i am sure i can find a better guy . (= . i will be more happier without that burden . don't have to keep worrying whether should i trust him and now i've finally see the truth, i shouldn't . what he told me is jus a lie afterall. telling me that he won't mention break anymore, whatever he say or promise me, IS JUS A LIE! to me, he's a forever lier . can't be trusted . luckily i realised earlier . i've seen the truth in him . he don't deserve any love from me . he betray my love again and again . can anyone tell me, what is love ? if he say that he love me it isn't the facts. if u really love someone, would u give up so easily? jus like letting off a bird? no right? all this guys usually say is all bullshit!! LIES!! don ever say u love me when u don't ! i've enough ! )'=

I need a heart for my remedy heart . it hurts me thorns .

Went to meet my sister at tampines . i bring her go eat pastamania .haha . den walk walk . we took some pics. loves sis .